I wrote a post earlier today but deleted it because it was very personal and it was about someone that may have taken it the wrong way.
So this past weekend i had minor surgery done and the doctor found a few things wrong (finally!) so i can take medicine now to help fix some things. I have to wait a few more weeks to find out other things that are wrong but its good that the doctors are finally getting somewhere. One good thing about it is that my doctor has made it very clear to me that if i do not eat healthier, things will get worse for me and after all that i have been through the past month, i would hate to see what GETTING WORSE means. I love junk food and have never ate a salad in my life, but knowing that i HAVE to incorporate a little more veggies and a little less grease, should make the transition a little easier (except that i just ate a whole buffalo chicken pizza and a brownie with ice cream-oops).
I really miss my boyfriend and i cant see him for another 3 weeks. I hate long distance! Tomorrow is his 21st birthday and i want to be there to make sure he doesnt die but i cant!
Something that I have been thinking about lately is my friends from home. All of my best friends from high school have children and do nothing with their lives except smoke weed and drink a lot; which i dont anymore so we dont relate. I always knew we would be leading different lives but i am sad that they no longer include me in their lives just because i go to college and am trying to make something out of myself. Its sad that they have pushed me away for trying to do well.
This is a really random blog but whateverrr.
some people are like that.. trust me you do not want to be accosicated with them.. its hard but in the end you will not have to choose between weed and a friend or booze! You will find good friends and keep them, but dont feel like you have to be friends with people who have different life styles than you. You can still talk to them and help them maybe, but I would not be friends with people that you disagree with on how they live thier lives.. or you could hang out in a public place during the day and see if that works… Don’t get too down.. friends come and go! the ones who stick around are worth it..
and I miss mine too.. wish you were coming with me this weekend!!
you’ll get to see your bf soon!
just remember, its not as bad as a deployment! haha.
Sorry to hear about your health. I hope everything will get better soon.
i hope you get well soon. keep your chin up also. im sorry to hear about you and your boyfriend and how it is his birthday tomorrow and u would like to be there. long distance can be hard, stay strong!