Is it summertime yet? Ahh.. it feels so close but its not. The last day of classes is next monday and lucky me doesnt have a final until the following tuesday. So for a week, I have nothing to do…and it is going to be such a tease because i am done but not really. My boyfriend is done with everything on saturday and then he will be here for the entire summer and i am SOOOOO excited. I love spending the summer with him because we can see each other everyday if we want. As soon as august rolls around, it is soooo hard getting used to not being able to see him often.
Long day already April 29, 2008
Its not even 11:30 am yet and I am exhausted. I woke up at 6 am and drove back from tech in the pouring rain. somehow i managed to make it back in 3 hours which is amazing but it was still one boring ass ride!
This weekend was amazing! seeing the boyfriend was sooo nice and his formal was so much fun! It was a huge shitshow and I enjoyed every second of it.
VCLA and Praxis April 22, 2008
For those who have taken the VCLA and Praxis…are they hard? Should I review or something before I take them? any advice? help, im afraid i will be the only person in history to not pass.
Antsy April 22, 2008
This weekend I am going to see my boyfriend. It will be a month since I have last saw him and I cannot wait to see him. I want it to be friday already.
Numb April 15, 2008
I absolutely love Linkin Park. Whenever I am sad or mad about something I put on this song: “Numb” and it helps me release some of my anger or sadness. Actually, almost all of their songs are helpful to me in that way.
I’m tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don’t know what you’re expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)[Chorus]
I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I’m becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can’t you see that you’re smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
[Chorus]
I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I’m becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I have my moments April 15, 2008
I am such a dumbass sometimes. The doctors have FINALLY discovered one of the stomach problems I am having and have told me things I need to do, along with medicine, to help alleviate the pain. I have had to start eating vegetables daily: yuck; I have to stop eating spicy foods (which are my favorite) annnddddd I am not allowed to eat tomatoes-which is fine with me because tomatoes gross me out. I am utterly obsessed with pizza and have it every single day (no lie). I have been on medicine for a week now and my eating habits, and just today realized pizza sauce is made out of tomatoes. WHAT A FREAKIN IDIOT! I am probably making my situation even worse.
Random April 8, 2008
I wrote a post earlier today but deleted it because it was very personal and it was about someone that may have taken it the wrong way.
So this past weekend i had minor surgery done and the doctor found a few things wrong (finally!) so i can take medicine now to help fix some things. I have to wait a few more weeks to find out other things that are wrong but its good that the doctors are finally getting somewhere. One good thing about it is that my doctor has made it very clear to me that if i do not eat healthier, things will get worse for me and after all that i have been through the past month, i would hate to see what GETTING WORSE means. I love junk food and have never ate a salad in my life, but knowing that i HAVE to incorporate a little more veggies and a little less grease, should make the transition a little easier (except that i just ate a whole buffalo chicken pizza and a brownie with ice cream-oops).
I really miss my boyfriend and i cant see him for another 3 weeks. I hate long distance! Tomorrow is his 21st birthday and i want to be there to make sure he doesnt die but i cant!
Something that I have been thinking about lately is my friends from home. All of my best friends from high school have children and do nothing with their lives except smoke weed and drink a lot; which i dont anymore so we dont relate. I always knew we would be leading different lives but i am sad that they no longer include me in their lives just because i go to college and am trying to make something out of myself. Its sad that they have pushed me away for trying to do well.
This is a really random blog but whateverrr.
Ah, Money… April 8, 2008
This month is sooooo busy with events and birthdays that i am going to be sooooo broke by the end. The other day i decided to write out all of the things i need to pay for and i seriously wanted to cry. I have to spend about 800 dollars just on birthdays and events within the month of april. I had planned on getting my tattoo within the next week but looking at all of the things i have to pay for, I just don’t have the money. And, to make matters worse, the money my parents give me for groceries is almost out. blaaah sorry to rant
Girls… I just don’t get it April 1, 2008
I am not a big partier at all. In fact, I don’t drink at all which annoys my “fraternity boy” boyfriend. Whenever he comes to visit, we don’t go to parties because I am just not into anymore but sometimes when I go visit him, I feel like the weekend is a non-stop party. Early in the night we mainly partied with a bunch of the guys and a few of their girlfriends: very low key and a lot of fun. After the ring dance we went to a friends house and there were a ton of drunk girls. These girls are taking off their tops and pulling up their dresses, grabbing guys and pretty much humping each other. I was so disgusted. I don’t know why these girls think its funny to demrade themselves…it’s horrible. I was embarrassed for them because of their lack of respect for themselves and their bodies. Eventually I got so tired of it that I had to leave because these girls were seriously making fools of themselves and giving girls in general a bad name.
Ring Dance April 1, 2008
This weekend I went to Tech for their traditional Ring Dance. I wish Mason had a tradition similar to this because it was so much fun. After the formal ball they let off fireworks on their drill field. I’m glad I got to enjoy a weekend full of “hokieness” because I absolutely love the school and their traditions.
